smile

nine in one

i like the way love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control is written here:

but what happens when we live God’s way?
He brings gifts into our lives, much the same way that fruit appears in an orchard—
things like affection for others,
exuberance about life,
serenity.
we develop a willingness to stick with things,
a sense of compassion in the heart,
and a conviction that a basic holiness permeates things and people.
we find ourselves involved in loyal commitments,
not needing to force our way in life,
able to marshal and direct our energies wisely.

Galatians 5:22-23 The Message

the positive look

"you stay so near your workplace. you don't have to wake up too early on work days. you're doing what you like to do at work. you're spoiled, you won't know what the real world is like."

so it was said to me.

but let me see it this way:

"this is a great blessing. from 30 minutes by train to work, it is now 30 minutes walk. i will be thankful. it is a big world out there, and i will face my own set of challenges. and the panel clinic - two in fact - are in the town area nearby. how good can God be to me?"

anyway, i just paid my panel doc a visit.

doc: i haven't seen you in a long while. you're still working in this company?
me: yes
doc: how long have you been there?
me: coming to two years.
doc: the last time you came was... last year?
me: (wow, you remember me?)
doc: since you so seldom use your card. why not use it for other things? come for a check-up or something?
me: oh, okay sure. thanks.

it was difficult to talk in my condition. a very short drive later, i was home and sleeping the night and most of the following day away.

stinky piece

someone said,
you may not be able to control how your day started,
but you can control how you react.

it was a lovely morning on a Friday the 13th
i got up as usual and headed for the office
came to my desk and wanted to sit
but stopped on seeing a white fabric on it

nothing spooky or anything like that
it was drenched but by then it was damp
if by water, we can go about our business
but by sweat - that's total gross-ness

on putting away the unpleasant thingy
it didn't return my desk back to the ordinary
the keyboard and mouse and pads and papers
played their part in drying the dampness

soon my saviour the cleaner came my way
i never appreciated her more than this day
to her and other days she did merely her duty
but today - to me - it was a great necessity

my manager upon knowing the unfortunate incident
wasted no time notifying the negligent
a public apology and an offer to compensate
could not undo what was done, so i said...

it's all right, it's okay, it's not that all bad
however gross or stinky it is, let's not be sad
i still will forgive and won't remember that
let's all have fun and have a great day, no sweat!

everyone knows and everyone cares
no hard feelings and we can all rest
we had fun as how we always do best
for a bad start to a day did not end sad

happy friday 13th

see it all

this is how it was.

is everyone here?

were there not ten in the group?
why was it said "there's only nine?"
did they see that there was only 8½?

back home

it sure felt like a long week
and no warmer than 14°C
except in the hotel room

all especially the last was a blast
as much as we wished it was longer
it's great to be back home

never come across so many 7's before
and i might find more
maybe 'cause He's so into it

done, at last

production: 33 days (est.)
rendering time: 5.5 hours
status: final review completed
release date: 8 july 2007
running time: 987 seconds

what do i think?

the love and the hate of it

it's time to go through it again.

no sweat, it's something i love,
something i am passionate about,
something i feel i am called to do.

but i hate it.
i hate the amount of time spent on it.
i hate my looking into and tweaking
every detail that i can grab.

although i enjoy the fruits,
i fear paying too high a price for it.
i lost someone dear to me,
i feel like holding me back;
for fear of it happening again.

but if that's what i have to bear,
i should know by now
that life doesn't always go my way.
please sustain me and please,

hold my feet to the fire
'till i'm breaking in sweat
'till i never forget
that Your calling keep me on the line
give me the nerve
here it's all in the serve

the smart

decided to pay a visit to the smart while it's free. so off i went since it's only a short drive from where i stay.

the toll plaza is so messy. and there were workers sitting in the booth, opening the barrier for everyone and no toll was collected. rehearsing for the real thing?

moving on, i thought we can see the rounded shape in the rock left by the TBMs at the entrances, but they were rectangular. only inside can one see the rounded ceiling.

few minutes down the bumpy road and it ends at the city centre. not bad, this tube cuts traveling time.

now let's go home the way we came.

it was a short and fun outing. never driven through a tunnel this long before. wonder if that thing i saw along the way was one of the floodgates. should be, i could not stop to find out.

late night muse

what i see around me i don't understand
leaves me wondering if things are out of hand

why would doors that seem open for one moment
can all of a sudden shut tight for no obvious reason?
why am i shattered even though i stayed true
while others have freedom, and they reign and rule?
why some invade and yet acquaintances seem abundant
while respect and proper conduct only makes one distant?

all that and more no doubt it will create
a sense of unjust and a distressing trait
is it just me or is it true
that i am not able and to me this is due?

question 3

let's answer it this way:

i choose to be a multimedia developer
i believe it's in me from birth till forever
in whatever media its purpose i want to deliver
in a way that the message will impact my viewer