... it has been a long one,
would have been much longer
if not for the 3-hour nap.
... i thank everyone
who have made it so special,
and cherish all the messages
written to me.
... i am giving my life
to Him once again;
i want to become
what i am made to be.
... i will trust Him
and trust Him more,
because He sees
and knows it all.
... this chorus really speaks for me:
i want to leave a legacy
how will they remember me?
did i choose to love?
did i point to You enough?
to make a mark on things
i want to leave an offering
a child of mercy and grace
who blessed Your name shamelessly
and leave that kind of legacy
"Legacy" - Nichole Nordeman
this dark, narrow path needs to be walked down alone;
no one can follow.
i know that deep inside i am never alone.
still, in moments like these, having someone around helps.
thank You for the life You have given me.
thank You for the joys to brighten my days.
thank You for the sorrows to keep me near You.
thank You for everyone You placed around me.
thank You for always being there for me.
thank You for letting me be a blessing.
thank You for You.
i asked for ½, they gave me a ¼, so i told him i asked for a ½.
he took away the ¼ and returned a moment later with a ½ along with what looked like the ¼ beside it, and he said "½".
so did that mean i had a ¾? i hoped not, but it sure felt like a ¾ and i'm sure it isn't on the menu.
it was very eventful, reflecting on the death and resurrection of Jesus as a community. it also made a difference when one or two took the initiative to present items for this significant weekend.
only a month earlier, we decided that Easter was supposed to be a much more meaningful even for us than Christmas is, and yet we never really did anything. so, we decided to do something.
after our initial idea was deemed unsuitable, an 'old' song managed to inspire a tambourine dance. such meaningful lyrics - the gospel in a song as she put it. this time, idea accepted. so we went ahead.
problem was, the first three lines of the song could not be 'danced' out. this is where visual support comes in. brainstorm, research, sketches on paper, trace, colour, sequence, test, fine-tune... about two weeks spent in all. not to mention the dance choreography and hours of practice into the night.
all right, Easter is taken care of.
Good Friday? didn't think about it... until asked to present an item. about 4 days before. so what are we going to do? a song presentation is the only possible option, had a few songs in mind. but not enough time for anyone to practice. so this is where visual support comes in again.
proposed to portray stills from Passion of the Christ onto this song given to me a few months back. sounds easy. until i had to watch the movie. i saw it few years back, but now watching it again drove me near to tears until i had to lock my room door.
i survived and managed to put a decent presentation together. i didn't expect it to go far as i only had two nights on it, compared to the two weeks put into the first one. also because the movie was so much more powerful than what i put together. entrusting it to God, i prepped it for presentation.
it was presented on the Good Friday service. feedback? very powerful and moving. praise God. some asked to have a copy. guess the video turned out much better than i expected.
i couldn't wait for Easter Sunday (because Easter is a much more significant celebration). they had the anticipating tambourine practice on Saturday night.
Easter came, and the dance was beautiful. well done, dancers!
service is over, and i got requests for the Good Friday video.
until today, i still receive requests for the Good Friday video.
truly, God works in mysterious ways. what was done in less than two days could go so far. it cannot be me, it can only be Him.
» "why"
» "wide open"
"you fool, why are you embracing your cross?!" said the criminal to Jesus.
Passion of the Christ reminded us of how much Jesus had to go through. when, being God Himself, He didn't have to at all.
He chose to be made a fool so that we don't have to be. the death He suffered was undeserved and most humiliating, and yet he could still embrace His cross and carried it in determination to the top of the hill.
i'm still asking, "why did He have to do that? am i worth that much for Him to love, to the point of suffering and death?"
nobody knows for sure, not until we get there. and it must be so good that God doesn't want us to see it first because if He did, we won't want to come back to earth anymore.
so, what if one needs to portray heaven before he has ever seen it?
we have some hints on what it looks like, in Revelation 21 and 22. although it is describing the holy city - the New Jerusalem - and not heaven specifically, it's close enough that it must be synonymous with heaven.
His book says:
1. God will personally be with His people
2. no tears, no death, no sorrow, no grief, no pain
3. fountain and river of the Water of Life
4. city built entirely of pure gold
5. 2,414 km × 2,414 km × 2,414 km
6. massive wall of jasper, 12 foundation stones, 12 massive gates of pearl
7. God is the Temple and the light
in simple words - absolute beauty beyond imagination. how is that going to be portrayed?
impossible, but still has to be done. however, i will not attempt to portray all that at this time.
blessed Easter, everyone!
packing my bag this morning
was the hardest thing to do
but packing my bag was so easy
compared to standing outside your door
right now to say goodbye to you
think of me
i know you've never seen me cry
think of me
but it's so hard to say goodbye
think of me
what can i say to show you
i'll never give up on you
i will be waiting for you
i will be there when you call
i will see you through it all
and even in your darkest hour
i pray that the Lord we found
will set you on solid ground
i know that it feels like leaving
is a part of letting go
but i'm praying with hope and believing
that i'll see you once again down this road
i hope that it won't be long
think of me
i know God brought you as a friend
think of me
i know He'll bring you back again
think of me
what can i say to show you
i'll never give up on you
i will be waiting for you
i will be there when you call
i will see you through it all
and even in your darkest hour
i pray that the Lord we found
will set you on solid ground
think of me
i know you've never seen me cry
think of me
but it's so hard to say goodbye
think of me
what can i say to show you
i'll never give up on you
i will be waiting for you
i will be there when you call
i will see you through it all
and even in your darkest hour
i pray that the Lord we found
will set you on solid ground
... rachel lampa & mark shultz
finally some laughter.
i was given a mobile phone. it looks like an iPod Nano. but it's not the iPhone. because iPhones do not come with manuals that read like this:
...
7. Number keys ( show in the touch screen)
Press call icon which show in the touch screen , will show the numbers ,
Enter numbers and symbols ; In menu mode , can select a menu ;can set as Speed dial keys.
Press and hold 1 will connect to voice mail service.
8. * key (show in the touch screen)
Got different functions in different mode ,. In idle mode , Press and hold to exchange Silent mode and general mode ;
9. # key
Got different functions in different mode ,. In idle mode , Press and hold to auto locked the phone ;
10. OK key
In most of the menu ,OK key act a same function as Left soft key.
...
my assignment? make sense of what i read. and ensure this does not land in the hands of the phone users.
how much longer must this be endured?
how can those who deliberately caused pain to others enjoy themselves?
where are You? what are You waiting for? when are You going to avenge?
"let go and carry on, i want to see you fly again."
love to do that very much, then we can all live in peace; but how exactly to let it go?
if there's nothing for me today, i won't feel the need to get out of my bed.
who knows that the day will end up loaded with more than what i can do with no one to help, as everyone is assigned elsewhere.
still, it's good not wanting to be idle.
i was not very sure about it at first, but it was definitely worth the long weekend. thank You.
feels so at home being in a large gathering of people doing the things you do. although catered mainly for photography, that did not stop me from making the best out of it.
7 mentors to 1 participant? how cool is that? sounds intimidating but it's like this stream was organised just for me.
near the end, there was a treat to the best of all the photographs taken during the weekend, and this one is my favourite. well done, LC!
disclaimer: i do not own this photo, and it has been modified for personal use.
... it has been a long one,
